YMonday, September 12, 2005
everything that happen..happens for a reason.
-that's what i noe but just cant understand.
y must u hurt for a reason?
y must u make a mistake for a reason?
y must u love for a reason?
y must u be crazy over him and cant have him for a reason?
y must u be tormented by ur past for a reason?
y must everything happen for a reason?
if there is one thing that i can do that i know doesnt happen for a reason..
i will do that one thing..and im sure i'll be safe.
im sick of living on the edge..and hoping that it'll be ok soon..
cuz it won't..one problem will lead to another..it's a cycle..a cycyle that'l never end.
juz give me one day..free from all this..and i'll b happy.
my sister never fail to worry me..each time i see her..i see hurt.
i see frustration and i see something that nobody can see..-dissapointment.
what is happening to you???
why are digging your own grave? and why do you keep wanting to end this life of yours?
why do u keep wanting to hurt? why don't u know that u matter to me?
why can't you see that u hurt me? im sick of crying every nite..thinking about you..
why cant you help me help yourself be strong?????!!
why does it seem that u wana leave me like how bro left me?!
is she all that matters in your life now?!!
DON'T LIE to me saying that i mattered to you as much as her.
cuz NOBODY in my life matters more than you.
I'm sick of all the lies.
I'm sick of you trying to be someone that u are not.
YOU ARE STRONG!-what the fcuk happened to you?!
i can no longer understand wat u feel.
cuz i duno u anymore.
cuz u have other frens who can give u more attention.
cuz u have her.
i HATE the word LOVE.
cuz all that it's been doin to me is hurt.
what did i do to deserve this from you and everyone else?!
why do i feel so alone rite now??
see what u've done to me?! u made me weak.
i cant stand alone anymore..cuz u left me stranded here..with no one.
i have no one whom i love to talk to..
everyone is living their life their way..leaving me out of it.
how am i supposed to be strong now wen negligence is rite at me..
wen its overwhelming my strength.
when you are too busy trying to have something tat u can never have.
WHY MUST ALL OF YOU WANT SOMETHING THAT U CAN NEVER HAVE?!!
why must i always end up being the one whose hurt and alone?
till when wil tis prolong..?
happiness..come soon..please..before it's too late.
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